Hannah wrote an *awesome* song about the whole evil-friend thing, and she really hit the nail on the head. It is really helping me through this, because somehow it gives the feelings a more solid voice... so I can let them be. Her song makes what happened real to me, which is a good thing. If I know it's real and valid, I can put it somewhere. I can acknowledge it and hold it where it belongs. Also, the song is just awesomeness.
Meanwhile, as I'm struggling to overcome problems with people who are selfish and messed up, I'm witnessing a situation where a truly wonderful guy and a truly wonderful girl are in pain. Either she doesn't really realize how lucky she is, or she doesn't have the feelings for him that he has for her. It's a place where no one is to blame-- but somehow pain sprouts from it anyway. So while her guy is truly incredible and wonderful, it doesn't necessarily make her life easier. In fact, it might be easier if he was a jerk, because then she would have a reason to keep him out of her life. Personally I can't understand what the problem is, except that they never get to see each other, but that doesn't make the relationship the problem, it makes the impeding factors a problem. When you're kept away from someone you love, the solution is not to get rid of the person you love. So it really must come down to the feelings. Which, we all know, are sometimes impossible to understand. The whole thing just sucks. It's just like it can't ever be perfect. If none of the problems most people experience are present in the relationship, then it's just some sort of rule that there *has* to be some other strange, unexplainable problem that ruins the relationship for them.
Which I should already know, because I've had a similar experience. Note: just because the person you love is kind, honest, thoughtful, selfless, responsible, caring, talented, intelligent, and has a great personality, and just because they love you, and you always treat them the best you can, that apparently *DOES* *NOT* mean the relationship will work.
Pitooee. Is there no rest?
I took that "form"quiz from Laura's blog on Quizilla. Lookee, I'm a vampire! How fitting! (for those of you who don't know, I used to be a vampire "enthusiast"... of sorts...)
You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.
"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."
Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.
As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
Thanks for all the comments you guys, they make me feel uber-special.
Meanwhile, as I'm struggling to overcome problems with people who are selfish and messed up, I'm witnessing a situation where a truly wonderful guy and a truly wonderful girl are in pain. Either she doesn't really realize how lucky she is, or she doesn't have the feelings for him that he has for her. It's a place where no one is to blame-- but somehow pain sprouts from it anyway. So while her guy is truly incredible and wonderful, it doesn't necessarily make her life easier. In fact, it might be easier if he was a jerk, because then she would have a reason to keep him out of her life. Personally I can't understand what the problem is, except that they never get to see each other, but that doesn't make the relationship the problem, it makes the impeding factors a problem. When you're kept away from someone you love, the solution is not to get rid of the person you love. So it really must come down to the feelings. Which, we all know, are sometimes impossible to understand. The whole thing just sucks. It's just like it can't ever be perfect. If none of the problems most people experience are present in the relationship, then it's just some sort of rule that there *has* to be some other strange, unexplainable problem that ruins the relationship for them.
Which I should already know, because I've had a similar experience. Note: just because the person you love is kind, honest, thoughtful, selfless, responsible, caring, talented, intelligent, and has a great personality, and just because they love you, and you always treat them the best you can, that apparently *DOES* *NOT* mean the relationship will work.
Pitooee. Is there no rest?
I took that "form"quiz from Laura's blog on Quizilla. Lookee, I'm a vampire! How fitting! (for those of you who don't know, I used to be a vampire "enthusiast"... of sorts...)
You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.
"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."
Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.
As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
Thanks for all the comments you guys, they make me feel uber-special.
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