Hello, World
I've been away for a while. Sorry. As usual, I got overwhelmed by all the things I felt I ought to write (about my trip to Savannah, my whole summer, what I've been doing lately) and ended up writing nothing. I got so behind that it seemed impossible to catch up, so I gave up.
Today I am sitting in my room listening to pensive music, and I felt the urge to write. I re-started my old Persephone story for NaNoWriMo again, and now that it's November 20th I think I have a total of about 600 words.... from the first session. Every time I open that document, I am overcome with a monumental wave of shame and self-loathing... so I'm writing here instead.
I wish I could write something I like.
So. News. I am moving to Japan in March, for at least a year. Most likely it will be two years. I want to teach English abroad, I want to continue to travel, and I want to be with Daniel, so off I go. Some of my friends have reacted a bit negatively to all of this... which I suppose is understandable, if I stop to think about it a bit. I get the feeling that if I had decided to go to Japan on my own, just to travel, just to teach, and there was no guy involved, people would be a lot more supportive. I guess I have a reputation for being eternally single and *independent,* so some people have taken this as "Natalie moving around the world for a man," which provokes a rather visceral response. I think that's a bit of an extreme way of looking at it-- I'm going for a lot of reasons. Still, he is a big part of my decision, and I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I can see how it might seem sort of random and surprising, though. Unfortunately, due to our situation at the moment, hardly any of my friends have even met him, so he must seem a very mysterious figure. Trust me, though, he's a good guy.
With this in mind, I'm spending as much of my time as possible working, as I'm trying to save a large amount of money in a short amount of time. I'm also doing my best to learn Japanese. It's challenging, but not as hard as I thought it would be. My biggest enemy right now is my attention span... I can't seem to concentrate as well as I used to. Maybe that's a consequence of being out of school for a while; I don't know.
I'm also putting forth my first-ever *real* effort to lose some weight and get into better shape. I've done a pretty good job this week of working out and avoiding junk food, so I hope I can keep it up. Unfortunately, there's no instant gratification when it comes to weight loss... so that's rather frustrating for me. I just hope I see some results within a few weeks so I don't feel like I'm doing this for nothing.
I'm very day-dreamy today... I think I'll just lie back and listen to some Feist.
Today I am sitting in my room listening to pensive music, and I felt the urge to write. I re-started my old Persephone story for NaNoWriMo again, and now that it's November 20th I think I have a total of about 600 words.... from the first session. Every time I open that document, I am overcome with a monumental wave of shame and self-loathing... so I'm writing here instead.
I wish I could write something I like.
So. News. I am moving to Japan in March, for at least a year. Most likely it will be two years. I want to teach English abroad, I want to continue to travel, and I want to be with Daniel, so off I go. Some of my friends have reacted a bit negatively to all of this... which I suppose is understandable, if I stop to think about it a bit. I get the feeling that if I had decided to go to Japan on my own, just to travel, just to teach, and there was no guy involved, people would be a lot more supportive. I guess I have a reputation for being eternally single and *independent,* so some people have taken this as "Natalie moving around the world for a man," which provokes a rather visceral response. I think that's a bit of an extreme way of looking at it-- I'm going for a lot of reasons. Still, he is a big part of my decision, and I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I can see how it might seem sort of random and surprising, though. Unfortunately, due to our situation at the moment, hardly any of my friends have even met him, so he must seem a very mysterious figure. Trust me, though, he's a good guy.
With this in mind, I'm spending as much of my time as possible working, as I'm trying to save a large amount of money in a short amount of time. I'm also doing my best to learn Japanese. It's challenging, but not as hard as I thought it would be. My biggest enemy right now is my attention span... I can't seem to concentrate as well as I used to. Maybe that's a consequence of being out of school for a while; I don't know.
I'm also putting forth my first-ever *real* effort to lose some weight and get into better shape. I've done a pretty good job this week of working out and avoiding junk food, so I hope I can keep it up. Unfortunately, there's no instant gratification when it comes to weight loss... so that's rather frustrating for me. I just hope I see some results within a few weeks so I don't feel like I'm doing this for nothing.
I'm very day-dreamy today... I think I'll just lie back and listen to some Feist.